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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Touch of Gray

My blog typically serves as a pair of rose-colored glasses. I'm able to frame my life into pretty pictures and happy thoughts. But as the song says*, "Every silver lining has a touch of gray." And I have to admit that today I'm feeling a little gray.

Ever since the economic collapse we have struggled financially. David is a builder and general contractor, and even though he works 60-70 hour weeks, all of his revenues have gone into keeping his business afloat. And despite being tremendously blessed, I am tired of feeling stressed every time I buy a loaf of bread. I want to go to the store and buy stuff (without feeling guilty every time I get something not absolutely essential). I want to go out to a real restaurant. I want to keep Summer in pre-school and to be able to pay for my kids' piano lessons. I want to feel safe and secure and not stress about whether or not we're going to be able to pay our bills. Really, I want to live a happy, easy, stress-free life. And thankfully I know that's not exactly what I signed up for. The silver lining throughout every trial is that God is aware. With Him, "I will get by."*

*(A pat on the back and bragging rights to anyone that knows what song I'm talking about.)

7 comments:

Natalie* said...

OH I know the name of the song - "La Vie En Rose" made famous by the incredible Ms. Edith Piaf...wait, that's the rose-colored glasses reference, though I'm not sure on the "framing life into pretty pictures and happy thoughts" line. Do I still get some bragging rights? :D

Stacey said...

I can so relate to that touch of gray! Commission jobs aren't much better in these economic times. I feel so blessed to have been given a great fun job recently to keep me positive but, it really is no fun when you wonder how all the bills will be paid. Somehow the Lord has always provided a way and I keep the faith that it will all get better real soon for all of us!

David said...

You don't have to be a "Dead Head" to love the song "Touch of Gray" by The Grateful Dead.

listen to it...you will be walking a little taller after listening to it.

"...we will get by."

Sweetest Of All said...

Been there since January when B's company slashed their negotiated salaries by 10%, gave him a promotion and re-slashed his salary by the bigger percentage, murdered the 401K match plan, and are now yanking tuition reimbursement. My pretty little go-back-to-school plan is being slaughtered. But alas, we get by, without all the little extras and in the meantime I'm sure we are both building a heaping supply of character. And that is priceless!

Natalie said...

I'm right there with you. So tired of being stuck at home cuz I don't have gas money. My kids are so bored. They're even getting sick of swimming! And the thing that gets me the most is that I think it could be different if I just knew how to budget better!
Kids are all in school next year. Anyone know of a job I can get that allows me to be home when they get off the bus?

Shana said...

I know, I see it so often with so many close family and friends. It is such a hard spot to be in! I am so sorry and will pray that his business starts to pick up. It is so sad to me to see so many men that have wonderful decrees without jobs. I hope that life picks up for MANY people, including YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Kate said...

Oh girlfriend, I hear you all too well....having a teacher/coach for a hubby is wonderful, but the money isn't there. He found out last week that salaries are being decreased....and we aren't really "getting by" on what he is making now. (Love that song by the Dead...if that's the right song!) BUT, that said...I'd rather be home with my kids than working....I have to remind myself of that every time I have to buy something and then almost vomit b/c I'm spending $$$ that we might not have enough of.